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Monday, June 12, 2006
Monday, June 12, 2006
" my fault tat im not in the mood and i just blurt it out.
my fault tat you dont like the way i comment it "
i remembering myself saying not only once, but a few times.
if u want me to shut up, den i would.
and, who would want to listen to a comment like, "fcuk"?!
i can accept anything from my friends,
but, asking your friends to shut up is rather rude to me,
not to say, "fcuk".
its so hurting can. =/
" my fault tat i feel alil lefted out today tat i kept jumping around"
den, can i tell u..
that i felt so thrown!
i feel so thrown away by my friend.
she can just suddenly run away to find her long-time-no-see-friends,
she can just suddenly turn away and discuss about the whoever she is,
she can just suddenly walk away upon seeing he's there,
all without notifying.
i felt so lost that i duno should i go forward together,
or should i just stay put...
" ever wonder how things you say hurt me w/o you realising it?
its saddening to know tat he's nicer "
not that i dint, its just that im stating some very basic facts.
he already told u obviously he dun really like them,
and to him, he thinks u're rather close to them.
do u think, he'll trust u that much with his that-kind-of-character?
he's not nicer in anyway,
because from observations of yesterday,
u dint know how to find chances.
but i knew, that's you.
and did u know,
that i felt so sorry and guilty since last saturday night?
because of that, i kept thinking of so many interpretations for that.
no, u wont know, because i nvr told u so.
" but somehow im not tat bothered abt it like how u think im.. "
are u sure u aint?
cause, its not only me that thinks that way.
the way u show ur attitude,
the way u express urself..
" i feel myself very unimportant to you guys.. "
i duno how come u've got this feeling.
i admit, we did have something we're hiding from u,
because we knew u wont be hearing that in and listen to us.
but to me, i feel we're more unimportant to u.
because u can just left us there for others w/o at least notifying which we usu do.
and i really felt hurt to see this coming from u,
because we're always waiting for u to get-together,
even its just a plain meal.
and to think i forsake my hour of mugging because im worried for u.
because of all these,
u made me no longer want to go there..
the only place that i can buy a simple hope.
to buy a hope of seeing the one i wanted to see most..
when everytime u told me that u could see the one u wanted on this and that days,
did u wonder that im reminded of i dont even have the chance to see for even only a second.
because of this, i have to wait till at least 4am everynight before im willing to go to bed,
even if my class starts at 9am in the morning. =x
juu, we're so dishearten! >.<
imisshim;
12:40 PM
