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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
couldnt get to sleep lately, and its real tiring.
swallow 2pills in at 7am and off to bed.
nearly couldnt woke in time to meet-up, hahas.
really, im so sorry.
life's seems to be of the opposite for me,
but what can i do? =x
sitting on the seat in the train, time seems to pass so slow.
tears fall for i-duno-why.
my head keeps spins non-stop,
and these few days really seems hell.
toilet seems to be my 2nd room,
throwing out till my stomach pains.
i always thought by not eating, i wont throw out,
but im wrong, real wrong.
since when im right tho? lols.
maybe i really should consume something so that it wont be that pain. =x
strolling along in the darkroad carpark all alone,
my heart turn cold.
im not being myself recently, i know.
to pretend im not any concern about anything around me,
i said things purposely to hide myself.
alot of things that i said, i really dint meant it,
alot of things that i'd done, i dint want to did that too.
but sometimes, self-tortured can just bring u a sense of, i-duno-how-to-describe.
especially to u.
because i enjoyed seeing how u react to me,
for it can brings some laughters in me.
* as u can see here too.
but somehow, i realise im wrong.
im alil affected by what u had said to me today,
because i mind how u guys see me.
im sorry for somethings i'd said,
im sorry for those that i'd done.
i dint intend to do much but just want to say..
i dint change to the bad, for i never been good before.
my life had been more havoc in the past.
im trying to change but my environment doesnt give me a chance.
erm ya, just, forget about tonight.
we're still the same, right?! =x
i hope..
my big apologies.
so much so for being so emo tonight.
im fine. =)
imisshim;
11:38 PM
