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Saturday, July 15, 2006
Saturday, July 15, 2006
i realised..
rach loves to remind me about my past...
i think its gonna be the last time im talking about him,
so let me rant all i want now,
once and for all. =)
a cold period between us,
u wanted me to choose whether to stay or to leave,
i used 2days to decided i should stay,
because i wanted to give u my utmost support.
but a week later u dump me.
i tried all ways and means to want us to get back,
but u're determined not to want me anymore.
all my friends were happy that we aint together anymore,
they wanted to date me out to celebrate,
but i refused.
i got so depressed that i did those silly things,
and my new classmates can actually see through my fake smiles.
u knew what got into me,
but u could just say those things to hurt me even more.
one week later, u deleted me off your mind..
and the worst is u're wooing another one now,
but oh so poor u, she refused to be with you despite ur one month's chasing.
another month later, u got urself another new target,
you stay by her every day and night just like u're so used to.
3weeks later, i receive news that she's together with my bro's fren.
oh so pathetic u again,
but it left me wonder why i got together with u years ago.
3months later, u called me and pretended to ask my well-being,
but actually u just called to say how much u love your new girl,
and u actually leak out ur motive for calling me is because she called her ex.
u wanted her to know ur ex would be there for u as well.
u called to exclaim how much ur love is to her,
how nice u treat her like u nvr did to others before,
and i wont ever forget u told me this,
"i really love her like no one else before".
at that second, i wanted to slap u real tight as my tears flowed,
and i very much wanted to hang the phone but i dint.
when i went to take my medicine,
u asked me did i took a dozen of pills and ask am i dying soon?
thanks for ur "wishing me to die asap" and ur promise to attend my funeral if i died now.
the next day u smsed me to inform me ur are okay now,
my heart broke for i duno why too,
no, im sad not because i still loved u.
months later, u smsed me again to let me know u broke up with her,
and one day u might just return to me.
i know u wont and i wont want.
another few months gone,
u msn me urself this time,
so i thought what happen again,
but oh, actually u just wanna ask me who's the guy with me in my display pic,
and u went to display out ur another new gf pic too,
follow by a discussion on how loving u 2 are.
u keep probe me on whether had i went into a new relationship,
and whether am i still missing and thinking about u.
i ponder what's ur motive for all these,
that's e day i labelled u as a jerk.
2weeks ago before today,
u went to view my profile upon seeing my new pictures with guys,
it wasnt a big deal but i see the change of ur msn nick.
hahas! 3yrs of being together,
we gone through alot and we pulled through that many times,
nvr did i thought i'm deserved to get such treatments from u.
im not sure whether u did everything in purpose,
but i doubt u knew im hurt that deeply by you.
but ah well, thanks lots for giving me a chance to grow!
everything is ok now,
because 2yrs had passed,
and i grow to be a different sin.ee now,
treasuring every bits of everything!
2 yrs of single-hood, and i enjoyed my life as much as my frens do.
and nah.. the "xl asked: are you girls in relationship and i replied, its complicated."
isnt referring to this case. =P
曖昧讓人受盡委屈....
imisshim;
12:45 PM
