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Thursday, July 06, 2006
Thursday, July 06, 2006
the roadshow officially ended today, haha.
i think it quite bonded our class in a sense,
and yea, should i be happy with that? lolx.
was basically slacking through the morning,
just chat and walk about at the "np orchard road".
did 2 of my elearnings before i KO to bed in the noon,
though today roadshow wasnt as tough as yesterday one,
i still feel very wornout. lols.
no choice la, old le den my brain starts to rust as well!!
this week is the elearning week for mkting students mahs,
den ya, i always thought this week only need to go back for IS and roadshow,
so i happily forgotten that i got OM lessons. =/
my stress starts to conquer me again.
i just felt myself wrong in any sense,
hence, not able to do anything right now.
and right now im thinking of how to continue my path.
mr yik phoned me to let me know the IAP thing,
so yea, its a new company related to the IR,
u koe IR, the dream workplace for us.
if i decided to go for that, it would means i wont get to study tourism at all?!
which in turn decides that i shall be a marketor in the future.
for now, im still unsure whether do i love marketing enough to pursue that.
haha, to go or not to go?!?!
and i know if i decided to go for IAP,
i have got to give up alot of things,
because i would need to prioritise things,
and then im afraid what i fear most would come true.
well, shall see how things would go on.
haha, suddenly i thought of how i broke up with him. =x
he's my nightmares.
back to the marketing things.
in this business world,
its really like as if u're in a war,
i only thought its only when u're working then u would start snatching for business.
but NO! i actually seen that happening in our roadshow,
i dont mean my class larhs.
sales management, they would surely scored As for that.
for sales, friend can be nasty with own friend,
for commission, everything else is nothing else.
開始後悔那幾天了,
哈哈哈...
怨不得任何人,
因為是自己的錯,
嗯錯, 我也不懂為什麼要那麼做.
真的覺得自己很愚蠢太傻想太多 = =''
後果自負, 好真實喔!
老實說, 我本來想在明天後,
很任性的要逃離這個我認為很醜陋的世界,
把我媽我妹我朋友全都扔下.
我之所以那天會要她們出來聚是因為我怕我沒時間等下去,
我那兩天會為什麼不去正眼看他不跟他說太多話是因為...
因為我怕我會在他面前掉淚.
哈! 還記得那晚我跟宛玲說我看到他我突然不會拍照且想走人了.
放心, 我會寫出來就代表我明晚還會在.
我媽發生了點問題,
我真的不忍心現在離開她不顧..
有很乖的吃藥, 至少現在不會那麼憂鬱了,
腦裡不會那麼時常地出現幻覺也不會一直聽到莫名的喊叫聲,
心裡也不會覺得全世界都鄙視自己..
你們不會了解活在幻覺世界的感受,
很難受很痛哭, 所以我每晚都哭著睡著,
所以我開始自虐...
現在你們知道發生什麼事了吧?
不要把我當病人看待,
我現在很ok.. =)
我會寫出來,
當然也是發生了點事,
嗯, 先不說...
imisshim;
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