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Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
top4 is out,
quite expected to all? lolx.
i dont think some of them fit the top4 crown,
and those who i think they're qualified dint get in,
ah, that's the cruelty of reality show.
me and sirong were there thinking on alot of "what-if",
but well.. time couldnt return to its past.
finally its going to end soon,
i no longer need to hear untrue comments about each competing bands.
hahaha, do they think some really perform that well for that sf2?
or rather did some did that badly sometimes,
and did some perform that well to be praise always?
biasness happen in every reality show,
so true! =x
im so sick and tired of being taken for granted,
duno how shall i explain myself,
but yes, really had enough.
if they don't like it,
why must they assume i like it and then,
its me who gotta do whatever they dont wanna do?!
occassionally i really dun mind,
but why had it got to be this case for every week?!
isit because i appear to be the nicest of all,
then hmm, i should just tear down my mask one day,
and they would know im just pretending since day1.
there are alot of things that some dont really understand that well,
urm because i dun see the need to explain alot for every single thing,
but i dont understand why some just love to pretend they knew me inside-out.
recently alot is trying to 裝熟,
hahas! i cant figure it out why is that so,
but yea, pointless isnt it?
she says because they LOVE me too much, hoho! =P
there's alot of things i really dont wanna know,
but it just had got to let me know somehow someway.
sometimes i really hope i can just see see hear hear only,
but sad to say i havent master the skills yet.
i cant pretend i duno about this and that thing,
i cant pretend those dint affected me,
i cant pretend it dint change my pov.
yes, im utterly super emotional for all you know.
i know sometimes things happen not the way i thought,
but yeah, it just happen somehow.
if only i can don't think too much and let go something,
i know i would be more happier that way.
the only way to not think too much - assurance!
give me the assurance i want, my darlings...
我好需要你的一句 加油..
我覺得自己快倒下了,
還能撐多少, 我真的不清楚.
我只不過18歲罷了,
很多事情不是我能夠一人承擔的.
如果她們沒要我把全部事扛下,
或許我能把事情做得更好.
有些事真的我也不需要我去操那份心,
為了你們我就也不去計較,
但就算你們沒很在意,
可以裝一下嗎?
別讓我覺得我的付出有點不值好嗎?
厭倦了一直在那當那個鼓勵他人的人,
因為我偶爾也想做那個被鼓勵的人.
但我知道你不會及時出現, 所以還是自己來吧..
"欣儀, 加油吧! 你行的!"
terrible headache now (grrr, not again?!),
so yeah, off to bed.
nights. =)
imisshim;
1:40 AM
